okay forget everything i said...

lets take a lil trip to the past.
about a year ago. pretty much my whole freshman year was spent in love with this boy names chad, he was my brothers friend and i loved everything about him
he was gorgoeus he was mature and he was the sweetest boy ever.
and when my brother found out of course he told him & he said something along the lines of me being cute but too young & ever since then my brother has tricked me and said how chad likes me.

but yesterday he called me and said guess who likes you??
and i said who? and he said chad, i was like wow okay brick.
and he was like no im serious this time & then chad came on the phone and jsut asked what was up and how i was, and then his cousin sammy came on the phone and said no really there telling the truth he does like you!

so, today he called me again. :] i think tht i might be seeing him tomorrow:]
who knows whats ganna happen.
but can you believe it, this is my dream come true
my prince charming likes me:]<33

so is this the future---> 2.21.09<33

??. i sure hope so:]

well hopefully things work out.
maybe the next time talk to you ill have a boyfriend:]

kev kev:]

so let me start from the beggining.
about 3 weeks ago i was at the freashman baskeball game with my friends vicki and tasha cuz they manage the team && all of a sudden i saw the most GOREOUS kid. he had shaggy brown hair and the mos beautiful blue eyes i'd ever seen.
so of course i asked my friends abou him "who is that?!" i asked excitedly:]
and then they said his name was kevin.

and then yesterday i was hanging out with my friend and she had him as a friend on myspace.
i asked her to tell him about me lol. so she messaged him and said my friend thinks your cute you should add her. and so he did. and then tasha asked "so what do you think of her?" and he said "um shes pretty lol." and then she told him to message me and he did. and we talked for a whilee and then he asked if i had aim. and we ended up talking on there for about an hour:]
and then this morning we were talking on aim for another hour:] and then i asked if he had texting and he said yess and gave me his number:] and we stared textingg which was a lil awkard lol.


and anyways, i know we just met but im really starting to like him:]
but im nervous cuz weve never talked in person and im scared if we do its ganna be akward.
but yeah, im really happy. i cant remember the last time i felt this happy talking to a boy. i didnt feel this happy with even chris!

yeah..i really hope this goes somewhere. dont worry i'll keep you updated on my kev-kev:]
[a lott of smileys i know!]

What would you want to hear from the person it would mean the most coming from?

Question- {btw if anyone is actually reading this i would just love it if you'd answer any of my questions in a comment}
What would you want to hear from the person it would mean the most coming from?

"Kayla...I know its been over a year, i know I wasn't there and I'm sorry. But honestly I've thought of you everyday. I wanna be with you more than i've ever wanted to be with anyone in my entire life. And I know I've done a lot of stupid things but I can change. You make me want to be a better person; I dont wanna do those bad things anymore. Kayla, as long as i have you that is all that i will ever need... I love you. And I hope that maybe you could love me too..

break it down

heyy. i'm kayla.
i don't really know why i'm making a blog. its not like anyone is going to actually read this, but im off my diary for a while and i guess i just need somewhere to write down all the craziness goingg down in my head. why am i off my diary you ask? well i just finished my last one and i got a new notebook but i made a promise to myself not to start it untill i start going out with someone, just so i can write down my next relationship from beggineing to end, and honestly i dont think thats going to be for a very long time.
i dont like anyone no one.

so yeahh i'm just going to break myself down a little bit- the real me.
well i'm kayla, obviously.
my life is pretty akward, i'm just an extremely akward person..
i try not to be... but its like being a jew, you cant not be one. either you are or your not.
ya know? sorry strange ananlogy.
i'm honestly not into labelss, and i dont think i could put myslef in one even if i tried.
i have a very odd sense of fasion. i try and so well in school but i get bored and loose focus too easily. i'm really a good-kid. i mean i dont do drugs or anything like that. and i'm a virgin. i dont excpect on loosing that anytime soon.

well thats all you really need to know about me.
and i'm going to write a lott of things in my blogs that no one could possible understand.
you'd have to have a front row seat in my head to understand everything.

keep it real;]
-kayla<3